Okay, three blogs in one day...I know, its totally mind blowing, but hey, what can you do...except read.

 

I need some adivce from anyone willing to give it...except Brad, because I know he'll just say "I told you so" lol.

 

Here's my Dilemna:

Almost four years ago, my friend Tammy K. introduced me to this guy named Jamie, now I thought Jamie was an awesome guy, so awesome that I wanted him to be my boyfriend. But me being shy and all that jazz (plus I was going out with Brad at the time) I never got up the courage because I thought that he wouldn't like me like that (considering the fact that I thought that he was like, in love, with Tammy) so, we spread apart and I never really spoke to him again, Tammy talked about him a few times here and there, and I asked about him because I really did like him alot when we hung out...but nothing really came out of it. Now, as you all know, I moved back to Ottawa and it will be almost a year that I've been here, and one night when I was on my way home from my friend Sammy's dorm at Carleton U and who should I run into, but Jamie, we talked for a bit and then he recorded my phone number on his video camera...I didn't think he would call me, but he did the next night when I was sitting on the computer (wow, what a shocker) he told me all about his life...how now, three years later, he had a kid and he was a little bit messed up from a previous relationship with his baby's mommy. Then, he admitted something that had me a little taken aback, he had wanted to ask me out four years ago when I first met him, but by the time he had worked up the courage I was gone. That had me wondering: "Do I still like Jamie?" of course the answer was yes, I don't think I had ever stopped liking him, he just kinda sat at the back of my mind. So, after a few visits we got invloved and he told me that he still liked me...but, what I didn't realize was how much he had changed...there was no more care-free Jamie that I remembered from those few years ago, he looked older, he had a kid, he had so many problems that I had to stop and say "Do I want this? Is it worth it?" You know what, it is worth it, he may be my complete opposite but he's the best. He's honest, trustworthy, sweet (at times), and funny...there's more, I just don't have a lot of time. I wanted to help him, because I care about him, and because I hate seeing people I love and care about suffer...the only problems were this:

1. He wants time before he asks me out, and thats fine, I understand that. But as we all know, I'm a little impatient.

2. He doesn't like it when I call him my "boyfriend", which kind of upsets me, but I don't want to talk to him about it bc he gets a little irked.

3. His self esteem is almost gone (bc of his ex) and it's hard sometimes.

 

So what do I do guys, should I keep at it, because I care about him?

 

I'm out

LB